How I'm feeling today.....

I cried all the way through church this morning... went out to the nature trail to pray and cry some more...then came home and went to bed. TOTALLY unlike me!!! I hardly ever take naps (makes me feel woozy) and almost NEVER cry.

I've never been someone who is prone to depression, or even frequent bad moods. I usually bounce back from setbacks very quickly, and tend to have energy to tackle the world most days. But today.... picture, if you will, the scene from the movie "Braveheart," where William Wallace finds out that it's Robert the Bruce who is behind that mask...and that it's Robert the Bruce, the man he believed in, who has let him down. William Wallace looks stunned, then drops his sword, just lays down in the grass, and no longer cares if he gets killed.

If you'll pardon another movie reference... The sentence that keeps going through my mind is a line from the movie Steele Magnolias: "I'd rather have 30 minutes of wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special." Like TVV wrote, none of the other candidates inspires me in the least. I'm glad that a few of them are trustworthy on the pro-life issue, but as people, they just don't have that special something to inspire excitement or confidence.

I'm just devastated. Personally, looking at my life, I feel like Cinderella....I work and work, day and night, for 3 and a half years... and then one day the Fairy Godmother comes and says, "I have a special announcement tomorrow... Wait for it..... OK, here it is: You do NOT get to go to any ball, and furthermore I'm quitting as Fairy Godmother...and you can look forward to working as a maid for the rest of your life but without anything magic to look forward to."

I'm just devastated. Do we have a little animated icon that shows someone curling up in the fetal position with their head under a pillow?

Does anyone know the best way to contact Fox News? I want to tell them what I thought of their Trump plug last night.

According to http://www.foxnews.com/on-air/huckabee/index.html:
huckmail@foxnews.com

I am a Mike Huckabee supporter who was very upset after his announcement last night on his show. What made it worse was to see Donald Trump come on the tv and make a "Huckabee Alert" and rub salt in Huckabee supporter's very fresh wounds. It was extremely distasteful and hurtful. Whoever okayed that should be ashamed of themselves. They should have taken into account that Huckabee was going to be shocking a lot of people that night and should have rejected Trumps "announcement".

Very disappointed,

Courtney *****

Just sent Fox this message.

Don't you think its possible the video from Trump was as much to cheer him up. Look, he has wanted to be President probably for his entire life. It's not a decision he took lightly. We are all talking about how down we are... Come on. He's just as bummed. He may be "at peace", but that doesn't mean he necessarily likes the idea of not running. I'm at peace that God is going to take care of me, but that doesn't mean that I enjoy the present amount of $$ in my bank account. (Do you follow? Being at peace doesnt mean you are in love with the decision you've made.) This was not easy for the guy.

Courtney,

Not only am I glad to you sent it, but I believe you spoke for a large segment of Huckabee's supporters. I just hope it gets to the person who actually made that decision. Don't apologize for a word of it.

~Grace

And so the solution to the deep guano that our country in is to do what? Withdraw and wave goodbye, hugging ourselves for our ideological purity, as it goes down the drain? At least there are some Huckabee conservatives waiting in the wings of 2016 now. If you give up on reclaiming the GOP at this point, you're handing it to the very people you disapprove of. You didn't think that it could be done in one presidential cycle, did you?

Sorry, but I totally agree with Huckabee's football analogy - we may not have reached the goal YET, but we have gained a heckuva lot of yardage. Are we just going to quit & hand it back or are we going to fight till the last moment of the last quarter?

Okay, so at this point it's begging for a "Let's get back in there & win one for the Gipper!" sort of ending, except that the Gipper just informed us that he's not going to be the quarterback, but this kind of thing makes me crazy.

I'm as pro-life as it gets, but this is like the argument people were making back when we were trying to make partial birth abortion illegal. There were actually people calling it an unacceptable compromise because it was only a small fraction of the babies being slaughtered and they wanted to fight for ALL or nothing.

Politics does NOT work that way. You fight for whatever you can get! Then you work to hold your yardage while continuing to try to advance the ball. And in politics, you also can persuade opponents & by-standers to join the team. The larger the team, the better your chances of scoring. I'm not sure where things are going, but I do know that this is no time to quit and go home!

Yeah, that was my prayer at church this morning - that if it was really God's will then would He please grant me the same peace with GH's decision. Unfortunately, even at 46yrs of age, I still haven't learned to accept God's will graciously.

The problem here is that this is bigger than any one person - this is the direction of our country at a critical moment in history and it feels like God may have just told us "No". Our country has a potentially terminal illness & God may be declining to save her. So now the agony of wondering will there be a last minute miracle in the form of a changed mind or an alternative candidate, or will it be a long & agonizing death? I'd like a peek at the end of the story so I can just start dealing with it now. Then again, there's a good chance I wouldn't. Ugh.

Thank you Sandra. Yeah, it's a tragic situation. He was diagnosed in April (or, that's when I found out), but will have to wait until fall to get surgery. Swedish universal health care at it's best! Letting you down when you need it the most. Universal health care does actually mean rationed health care, and whoever says otherwise is lying.

next week you can lecture us, but tonight, allow us our time of grieving!